Sunday, November 22, 2009

Hungry Again!!!

Ive always liked the spotlight (ask a LEO and u will know what that means to him/her).I remember, as a kid, I used to do stuff that would get me attention and trust me I used to get all the wrong kind of attention. Growing up I learnt different ways of getting attention. It was those damn slogan tees in college and then all some expensive brands during the first job. Down the line I also realized that you can use your work to get attention too. And being a freshman it was easy for me to work through and rise up the ranks (going onsite was a big deal for a rookie).

But then suddenly I started feeling content (aint nothing bad in that rite), I gave up on lot many things, goals, ambitions (cuz maybe I really had what I wanted..Job/Onsite/new-job/friends/girlfriend). I started going with the flow but now i have the feeling back. I feel restless again. I want things again. I want more from life now..and im not gonna sit and wait for things to happen, im gonna work and make things happen now.

Cuz im hungry...hungry for everything u can think of
I dont know if this is a good thing or bad...guess we will soon find out.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Its Over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its final..i don’t believe in god anymore…hell I think I might be in a war against him now…I mean things have from bad to worse …from accidents to monetary loses to people dying..i have sent it all in past coupla days…and If being friends with God got me this then I as well stay away from his company.

I get ran over by a bus while waiting at a traffic signal and get my car damaged in the process(yea…AGAIN), One of my younger cousins(just 21 in age) dies in an accident and then when I want to be at his funeral I miss my flight…talk about the mental stress levels.

What had I done to deserve this??? Whats the bright side of this??? Whats the positive out of this??? What lessons do I learn from all this??

All this ,indeed, has made me learn one thing, that there is no God. Destiny drives everything. Cuz if he was there, he surely would have listened to prayers of thousands of his college mates, he would have listened to prayers of a mother who hadnt seen his son for past 4 months, he would have listened to prayers of those who knew him as friend…but he remained unmoved..he did wat he wanted to do…is that GOD?? Or is that destiny fucking around with you???? I don’t know and I don’t want to know..all I knw is that if something is going to happen, it will happen. Praying to anyone wont help for sure.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Moral teachings

Read this while i was home this time(at my mom's school). Makes me wonder if it still holds true. Not in the corporate world atleast. And i still cant figure out what are they trying to tell young kids in school via this.